I’m taking a short mental break from tackling assignments and I’m going to write about my experiences as well as the #crowdfunding thing.
Grad School: I’m a lot like the Little Engine That Could. I wasn’t expected to complete high school, let alone do ANY college. Here I am nearing the finish line of my Master’s Degree (the top of the mountain), and I’m running out of steam. The stress for me has been more than what might be considered normal. I lost my dad in my first semester of this program. Being enveloped by the dense fog of grief has made school, and focusing on it, difficult. If the past two years were a book, it would be the “fish out of water” story. I’ve never felt I belonged. But I’ve made it this far.
The problem right now is that the fog got worse again this summer. For no reason I can think of other than possibly sheer exhaustion from stress of being unemployed on top of school. Things I could rely upon, such as my food stamps, were gone. Many of my friends who normally are there to back me up if my other attempts to raise funds fell through have little -if any more- to give. So my stress levels increased. Weeks passed and I felt like I was forgetting things, and I was. My assignments. Every time I looked at one, I felt like I was trying to read a completely foreign language. I’m now tackling them, in the final weekend before grades are due. I need to get a B-, but I’m not sure I’ll be able to. I have two assignment left, and the project. I’ll tackle the project tomorrow, but try to get the assignments tonight. One looks okay, the other? Again, a foreign language.
In order for me to get close to a B-, I also need to go back and do some of the discussions. They’re worth a large chunk of the grade. Again, this is why I feel I won’t make it. I want to curl up in a ball and make things go away… but I know that won’t make things any better.
Crowdfunding: I see many clicks and some likes, but very few who follow through to the methods of donation. I get it if you can’t donate, but if you can share it on your Twitter or FB or somewhere…. the more people see it, the more chances I have of making rent. Any and all help is appreciated. Seriously. And this is the last month this will happen.
~Dragon
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